WE ARE ON MATERNITY LEAVE! Lil’s and I have finally decided to take it easy after such a whirlwind of a year. Between New York and Toronto fashion week, my job at the hair salon, and all of my contracts with “blog life,” this BLUR of a pregnancy flew by. Our new baby is going to be here any day now.
For someone who has worked since the age of 16, maternity leave is quite the internal battle. It’s so incredibly hard for me to slow down from work. I thought I mastered the conflict with my first baby but I’m finding myself struggling to take it easy again.
Here in Canada we are lucky enough to get 18 months of mat-leave. With my first time around with Lils, I RUSHED back to work in 3 months. Only to spend my days at work fighting back tears to run home. Meanwhile at home, I was filled with anxiety to head back to work as soon as possible. After 6 weeks of this internal battle, I was back to mat-leave full time and decided to start blogging: my happy middle ground.
Shifting my energy and focus from career to home life is one of my biggest challenges in motherhood. But I have learned that it doesn’t have to be all or nothing. Both are essential to my happiness.
Motherhood has filled a hole in my heart that I didn’t even know as there and my career is my creative outlet and my biggest passion. I find huge fulfillment in both.
There are weeks, sometimes months, where everything goes into work life. Then there are times where morning cuddles turn to afternoon cuddles and we’re still cozied up in bed. Indulging in both is happiness for this Mama.
I have realized that integrating my life and my needs into motherhood is a matter of just doing it. Incorporating a little bit of “me” into the daily mama routine has helped me create a harmonious melody of mama life without giving myself up.
I’m a bit consumed these days with a few more projects and events that we are finishing up before baby’s arrival. (I can’t wait to share them with you all!)
Although I’m almost certain I will be back to square one in a few weeks. Trying to balance work and home life, this time with 2 little blessings! WAH!
Thankfully this blog feels more like play than work and allows me to find that balance between both of my worlds. SO even though I’m on mat-leave from hairstyling, I’m not really on mat-leave. I’ll still be blogging, but really, I am on mat-leave because blogging with Lil’s is a lot of work BUT it doesn’t feel like work. Haha Yuh know?